Sunday, 26 July 2015

Accepting Chaos

Hey there!

So once again, having been inspired by a quote in Demi Lovato's Staying Strong 365 Days a Year book, I decided to make a little post about it. I feel as though when things are getting quite hectic in my life, I have a little look for some quotes to make myself feel a bit more upbeat.

"The struggles and the chaos are part of life. But you have to accept them with grace and serenity because they have their own gifts too."

I like this quote a lot. Firstly, because sometimes in the craziness, you forget that everybody faces chaos and struggles, often the same ones as you do. If you read anybody's autobiography, they will tell you all of the hurdles they've overcome to reach where they are now. Unfortunately not everything is as easy as we would all wish, but if you sit about feeling bad and filling yourself up with negative thoughts and anger then it's not really solving anything, although definitely use your favourite music or hobby to release any tension.

Secondly, I like the quote because it's a reminder that the gifts can come at any random opportunity. Opportunities and people can come at any random time, often it's there's a negative before a positive. Likewise, it will rain before you get a rainbow! So basically, when you think about it, for every negative thing that happens, there is a positive right around the corner, if you just believe it and accept it. Some positives get overlooked but right here right now, you are a lucky individual.

I've only really been feeling philosophical for a few months, often down to the amount of quotes I read, but I feel like they get me thinking and I like that. Often these quotes can have a real positive impact on me and are a really quick way to put a bit of positivity into your mind. I will be doing a review on Demi Lovato's book sometime, so keep your eyes peeled for that!

I hope this has been an interesting read!
Thank you for checking this post out! Please leave any comments below!

Love & hugs
Claire xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Monday, 20 July 2015

Zoella Kissy Missy Lipbalm Review!

Hi everybody!

Firstly I'd like to apologise for the fact my posts haven't been as consistent lately, I'm going to try to tidy them up in the coming weeks! I'm sorry!!

Today's blog post is going to be a review of one of Zoella's new items in her beauty range, Kissy Missy lipbalm! I own a few of the original beauty line products, and I was a fan of them so I was super excited to try her new additions to the collection! However, on a bit of a budget, so I'm not buying them all together at once, I'm spreading it out!

Kissy Missy is quite possibly one of my favourite names of a product, it just makes me smile. If you haven't seen the Zoella vlog where Emilia tests the products, you have to watch! It's so adorable!! (Here is the link if you would like it)

I was super excited to buy this, as I didn't know what to expect. From Zoe's vlog, I gathered it was good for colour. And we can't forget little Emilia saying that it smelled of "peanuts" (another reason why you should check the vlog)

When I first opened the lip balm and smelled the scent, I was a tad worried as it smelled similar to something I'd had an allergic reaction to, with me having sensitive skin and all, but I needn't have worried, there was NO allergic reaction at all!

The consistency is SO GOOD, it's easy to apply and easy to layer the application as to whether you wish to have a light coating or a full on lip colour.
The pigmentation is great and it really looks like you've got a lipstick on not a lipbalm and it's very moisturising and not too sticky!

The colour itself is such a beautiful shade of pink, suitable for all skin tones! That was a worry before I bought it, as I worried it wouldn't particularly look good on me but I can build it up to whatever I like and I think it will suit a lot of people!

The staying power of the colour is absolutely excellent, it stays for hours! I was really really impressed with that, as with some lip products, you don't keep the colour for too long, but this really stood out for me in terms of staying power! I was really impressed!

Personally, I feel it may have benefited with more of a sweet taste to it, like Tanya Burr's lipglosses have their beautiful strawberry scent, that would be my only improvement, as it is a beautiful colour, leaves my lips moisturised and has a great staying power with the colour!
However it isn't a particularly "bad" thing, I really like it and think the packaging is adorable and that I'm very very happy that Zoe added a lipbalm to the collection as it is something I'm sure will be a very popular purchase among her subscribers. I've been using it so much over the past couple of days while the sun has been out and I must say I've loved using it! Definitely worth the £3 it cost!

I love Zoe Sugg if you've not already noticed and I'm now excited to try the rest of the new editions to the product range!

Have you tried Kissy Missy? What's your opinion of it? I'd love to know!
Also let me know if you've tried any more of the new products added to Zoe's line!

Thank you so much for reading this blog post!

Love & hugs
Claire xxxxxxxxxx

Thursday, 16 July 2015

Let's Reflect: Secondary School (Part 1) & Leavers Ball

Hey everybody!

Sit yourself down and get comfy, cos I have a feeling this post is gonna be on the long side!
Just over a few weeks ago, I finished sixth form. And it hasn't really sunk in properly yet that I won't be going back. It's a crazy and emotional thought and it does make me feel sad/nervous everytime I think about it.

Leavers Ball was an absolutely amazing night to end it all, I ended up on the dancefloor for about almost 3 hours straight. Everybody looked so incredible and it was so nice to be with everybody again. I had a bit of a bad attack of hayfever before however, and had to make a dash to the nearest pharmacy for an eyebath as my eyes were literally itchy and watering so much because of hayfever. But alas, they were fine during the actual ball itself! I literally enjoyed myself so much and just got lost amongst the music and the atmosphere and upon returning home, was so upset to change out of the dress I'd worn as I absolutely loved it and don't know particularly when I'll get another chance to wear it.
It was from Quiz and it felt amazing on and made me feel good.
I did have a little bit of anxiousness, but managed to control it luckily, which I was quite proud of myself for doing and still managed to have an absolutely great night and spent it with my favourites.

~ picture coming soon

I started secondary school in 2008 and it's hard to believe how much has changed since then.
I've made so so many new friends and had so many new experiences during school, had the funny times and the bad times.

I can look back on each year and feel happy with what happened, even if there are a few regrets within each year, good things happened and lessons were learnt and life went on.

There has been a lot of life lessons learnt throughout the years and even though my anxiety made it difficult throughout the later years, I do feel like it's been an amazing experience and there are a lot of people who I miss who left at the end of Year 11 and also those who were in sixth form with me. Even the ones I never really spoke to, they are all as important as each other. We're a year group and together there isn't anybody else like us.

The Year I probably miss the most is Year 9, as I was with my best friend in literally almost every class, and we had a nice group of people and it was just such a funny year. I don't think I've ever laughed so much as I did in Year 9.
So many memorable stories and events that me and my best friend still laugh at to this day, happened in Year 9.

In particular, one of the stand out moments from secondary school was passing my maths GCSE in Year 10/11. I'd struggled with maths since forever and I think I've mentioned before that even one of my teachers told my parents at parents evening that she didn't know what else I could do as I was trying my best and coming to after school sessions and completing all of the practice questions, which at the time wasn't great cos it was like she was giving up on me.
However, I owe the reason I passed maths, to one of the maths assistant teachers who never ever gave up on me.
He was the one who continually helped me through so many questions and things in the specification and honestly put so much work into helping me (and a few others of us that were struggling)
I can't ever thank him enough for being such a star and staying back after school to repeat more things that wouldn't stay in my brain and to get me through more questions. I felt less embarrassed to ask him questions because he wouldn't treat me like an idiot he would help me properly.
One of the other reasons why I think he is an incredible person was because he never once got irritated with me even when I made ridiculous amounts of "oops'" as he called them and struggled relentlessly. He had a good sense of humour and was able to bring that to the maths after school clubs, which made us all feel very at ease and calm.
He also continually told me to believe in myself and that he believed I could do this, which for what its worth was really lovely of him and honestly I'm not told that often so to be given such motivation was good of him.
I cannot thank him enough for everything he did for me. I will always remember him and have fond memories of every thing he did which helped me. He never underestimated my potential and continually reassured me and believed in me, even when I didn't believe in myself. I will be eternally grateful for that.

Basically, if you are still at school right now, make the most of it because honestly the little things you will be grateful for and miss.
Like the fact I'm never going to do Aerobics to Flip N Fill and Basshunter with my PE class.
Or being in Science class and literally having to hold it together because of the amount of things that happened which would amuse me.
Or sitting in the sixth form area in a circle of your friends just chatting because well you have a free period?
Or chatting to my IT teacher who used to be my form teacher who used to finish off most sentences with #justsayin.
School days are amazing and there's so many opportunities for good memories, so make sure you're embracing it.
My life has honestly changed so much throughout secondary school and I'm glad that I can hold my hands up and say that even though it could get tough (and even rough) at times, I've enjoyed my time there and I'm going to REALLY REALLY MISS it!
I don't feel I've got into as much detail as I wanted to, so I may follow this up in the future with another post, but for now... thank you so much for reading this blog post! My blog means a lot to me so it is great to get feedback!

Love & hugs
Claire xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thursday, 9 July 2015

Be Hopeful

Hiya everyone! So I noticed that Tanya Burr had tweeted a very inspirational and thought-provoking tweet a few weekends ago.

"Just because something isn't happening for you right now, doesn't mean it will never happen"

It made me think that being hopeful and having a good outlook on life can really make a difference to how you see things.
Try and give yourself that hopeful feeling of knowing you can do what you want and try to achieve whatever you want.
Having belief in the future is a good way to cleanse your mind and keep you focused on what you want to do.

If you don't have that kind of outlook on life, it can really dampen your mood and generally not make you feel good.
That's why it's better to have hope and belief that the future will be okay and you will sort things out and you will be a happier person!

If there are things that you want to do, write yourself a list and then go through the list and think to yourself what you need to do to achieve it and some of the things you'll need to do.
Attempting to be organised can be extremely useful in sorting yourself out so you know exactly what to do! Remember that some things take longer to happen and that there will be setbacks but IT'S OKAY and there is ALWAYS A WAY!

Another quote that fits this post is that of Twista ft Faith Evans' quote from Hope (and also Bars and Melody's Hopeful in recent years)

"I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today, take this music and use it, let it take you away, and be hopeful, hopeful, andhe'll makeway
I know it ain't easy but, that's okay just be hopeful"

Thank you so much for reading this, may you have a fabulous day!!

Love & hugs
Claire xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Friday, 3 July 2015

10 Regular Feelings You'll Understand If You Have Anxiety

Hi everybody! I thought I'd do a post about 10 Regular Feelings You'll Understand If You Have Anxiety. I hope it may help other understand some of the thought processes or feelings people with anxiety may go through.

* Incapable
So when you've had an attack, you've got yourself out of the situation and you're left with your own thoughts, it can be frustrating and you can feel incapable of doing certain things, leaving you angry with yourself and this just adds to the insecurity. It's important to remember all of the little achievements and little things you've done that have been successful at this point, as a boost.

* Guilty
Guilt is another annoying feeling, as guilt can be incredibly irritating and you may feel bad for events that have happened, such as the panic attack or anything really.

* Exhausted
Sometimes, I feel like panic attacks are overlooked as to how exhausting they can actually be. I recently sat a Media exam which was 2 and a half hours long, and for 2 hours of it, I was having recurring panic attacks throughout it. And when I left the exam I felt absolutely shattered. Like I'd just done 2 hours of intense running. The adrenaline can leave you tired as well as the constant butterflies and other symptoms of a panic attack, they can really tire you out, which is particularly bad during summer when the heat is also a tiring factor!

* Boring
It can be really frustrating to turn down plans or to change plans due to an attack and that it turn can make you feel like a boring person or not good enough, which can again spiral into something worse.

* Upset
Similar to the feelings of being a boring person, it can then cause negative feelings and self-thoughts as you can begin to feel upset that you feel like you can't do some of the things your friends can so as easily and you're forever wishing life was simpler.

* Unreliable
One of the main things which can be frustrating for the person with anxiety is feeling unreliable. Especially when often the anxiety itself is really difficult to control and unpredictable. Something which feels manageable a few days ago may seem trickier and more difficult once the day comes. It can really knock a person's confidence too, so be considerate.

* Getting Out
Nothing worse than being somewhere and it all happening so quickly and you just need to "get out" of the situation/place that you're in. This is probably why I like being in a spot where I can easy get out without causing too much disruption/or being at the back so I'm out the way!

* Uncomfortable
Feeling uncomfortable is one of the worst stages of anxiety, as you can feel sick, feel like you've got an upset tummy, feel dizzy, butterflies in the stomach and generally tired. It's just awful feeling uncomfortable and on a regular basis, it probably isn't doing great on the body either. If you can make yourself comfortable early on during something which triggers them, it's good in the long-run!

* Forgetful Yet With A Good Memory 
Sometimes the most annoying thing about anxiety is the fact that when you've had a panic attack, your brain remembers some of the little things about the situation and somewhat registers it in your head. This can in turn, be irritating in the future if you are triggered by one of the reminders of a previous attack as it can cause it to happen again, and therefore get you in a rather irritating little cycle.

* Regretful
There can be a lot of regrets due to anxiety.
A lot of regrets I have are anxiety-related, but it's important not to dwell on them too much and focus how to improve on any future situations, even though it's tricky at the time. Give yourself a bit of time to reflect and then power through to the future.

What I'm trying to say in this post as, it's a lot more than just constant worrying, having to leave early, sticking to what you know. It can have a deeper and more destructive effect on the person suffering.
If you know someone who is suffering with anxiety, please bear in mind that some of these feelings could be the way they are feeling and therefore ensure to let them know they are an incredible person and support them well.

It's not easy and it's not something chosen, it's often an uncontrollable state of mind.
If you yourself are suffering with anxiety, PLEASE remember that you should be proud of all the little achievements you have done which are often overlooked by bad days. You are an amazing fighter and I am sending you a massive cyberhug & sparkles & glitter and all that cutesy stuff ;)

Thank you so much for reading and if you'd like to comment please do so, just remember to be respectful!

Love & hugs
Claire xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx