Thursday, 15 September 2016

Life Update & Am I Quitting Blogging?

Hi everyone!

Today's post is a little update on me!

There's a lot happening for me soon. I'm going to university in a couple of weeks and it's one of the most terrifying things I've ever done in my life. My anxiety has been completely overtaking me for the past 12 months and I've had a serious battle against myself, it's been so so tough, a complete whirlwind of emotions.

I've doubted everything in my life, completely everything, I've felt like I'm worth nothing, like I deserve nothing and that I am nothing. It's been really intense and overwhelming at times. I felt like I was watching everyone else get on with their lives while I was stuck in this anxious, irritated rut. I constantly belittle myself and feel like I don't deserve things and that I'm being annoying or unreliable or what not. And that makes me more frustrated with myself because I'm annoyed at that's the way I am when I don't want to be.

I keep trying to push myself on and remember one quote which was something along the lines of 'If you want something you've never had before, you have to do something you've never done before' which I'm trying so hard to push into my mind.

I am so so terrified that it's all going to go wrong for me and that I'll be back to square one and unable to do anything again and feeling lost like I don't know what to do with my life, like I'm just so so scared. I think that's why I've been a bit absent with the blog posts lately as I have had other things on my mind. I want university to work so bad like if it doesn't, I honestly don't know what I'm going to do.

It took me a bit of time to decide whether to go to uni or not as I didn't believe I could do that and my anxiety was increasingly making things hard, I didn't feel capable of it. To be honest, I'm still struggling with belief, but I'm trying to be as positive as I can be about everything even though it's going to be a very very big change for me, but I'm hoping it goes okay. I know it's going to be a big, big challenge and I just hope I'm strong enough for it.

I do want to continue my blog, I'm trying to write posts ahead and sort stuff out, I suppose I've probably not paid enough attention to my blog as of late and I apologise for that. So I don't want to quit blogging as it's quite therapeutic to me. It's just trying to keep up with it and dealing with writer's block which can sometimes hinder it! I love blogging and I love having a bit of space to try and help others, recently I have had a bit of a struggle with some of the directions my blog may be going in, but I don't want to stop me writing. I want to keep on writing and keep on loving my beauty products and my advice and discussions about mental health.

EclairsCares was never just a beauty blog, it was a blog about things I care about whether that be music, beauty, lifestyle and of course writing to raise awareness on mental health and other topics I feel need to be discussed. Sometimes I feel like I put myself in this box to be a beauty expert when I'm obviously not and I know that, I just like to talk about things I love and share my thoughts on topics. I like that I'm not heavily restricted to writing about just beauty, as that isn't my expertise, I just like the excitement of products. I hope that you don't mind too much that my blog expands out to other topics too, I know some bloggers keep their topics to a minimum and focus solely on fashion or lifestyle or beauty, but I don't seem to do that here.

I'm aware I've had a bit of a ramble here, but thank you for sticking with me and I appreciate all of the comments I've ever received regarding my blog, it really does mean a lot to me! Thank you!

Also, I'm planning to do Blogmas this year (hopefully!) so if there's any Christmassy themed posts you'd like to see me do, then please feel free to leave them below!  

Love & hugs,
Claire xxxxxxxxxxx

Sunday, 4 September 2016

August 2016 Favourites

Hey everyone!

August has officially flown by. I swear every month seems to go quicker!
I don't have as many beauty favourites this month and I believe it will probably be the same for next month's favourites too, but here goes!!

Sleek Matte Me Lip Creams in Birthday Suit & Shabby Chic
I've mentioned them in previous blog posts but that's honestly a lot of what I've worn during August when I've been picking lip colours. I'm deffo obsessed with them!! To read my full length reviews click the names!

Rimmel Match Perfection Foundation in Light Porcelain
Even though I have been looking for a new foundation, I have been really loving this foundation recently, I think it's one that I'll always go back to and always have an exteme amount of love for. The shade fits me perfectly and gives good coverage! You get a lot for your money and Rimmel are one of my favourite makeup brands and their foundations are extremely good quality and I've heard Zoe aka Zoella mention how much she loves Rimmel's foundations too. Deffo worth a try!

Kanye West - Wolves
This is a very, very interesting song we have here from Kanye, it's like nothing I've heard before but I'm definitely obsessed with it! His beautiful wife Kim Kardashian stars in the music video, which is part of the Balmain campaign. Definitely should check it out if you're into hip hop with a twist.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LsA84bXrBZw

Two Door Cinema Club - Are We Ready? (Wreck)
This got missed out of my July Favourites, but I really enjoyed it. It reminds me of something but I can't think what, but it's very catchy and easy to listen to!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RrJZJtY6u7o

Beyonce - Why Don't You Love Me? (MK Ultras Remix)
This is another track which was missed off my July Favourites, but I've been listening to a lot during August too.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VMSdbk7yYO8

Knife Party - Bonfire
I'm not even a big dubstep fan but for some reason I went back to this track during this month!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e-IWRmpefzE

Jason Derulo - Kiss The Sky
I'm a big fan of Mr Derulo, and this is definitely one of his catchiest yet! Perfectly funky, catchy and enough to put you in a happy mood, this is such a good track!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=APyyMrH7HFY

Danity Kane - Bad Girl
Following Aubrey O'Day's entrance in CBB (more on that later) I decided to have a listen to some of Danity Kane's previous material, as they never really got played in the UK, which is a shame because I would have probably been quite a fan as I do love a girlband! Bad Girl became a track of theirs which I became fond of and has been regularly played throughout this month.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NFzws_oKl9k

Marcus Butler & Conor Maynard - I'm Famous
I gave this a listen as I like Marcus Butler and one listen had it stuck in my head and ended up with me listening to it loads! One listen turns into two which then proceeds to you still listening to it a week later.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-IO9eBA25s

Celebrity Big Brother
This probably took up my entire August this year. I started watching as I think Ricky Norwood is amazing and just kept on watching throughout till the end! Along the way I've become a huge, huge, fan of Frankie Grande, and also a big fan of Renee Graziano. Frankie was so so funny and upbeat and literally the kind of person you'd want to have in your life. Renee had some of the funniest comebacks of the entire series. And as for Ricky, he stayed genuine and true and didn't have to cause drama or make any drama for attention. He was funny and kind hearted, the way he has been. Bear did take home the title of the winner of Celebrity Big Brother, having arguably received the most airtime throughout the whole series.

Thank you so much for reading this post!

Love & hugs
Claire xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx